Desert Journey – Day 5
This morning my brain is a monkey brain. It jumps from thing to thing and bounces from place to place. It is hard to focus on Jesus. I am in and out of being in his presence and yet he is constant. He is waiting for me. Lord, quiet my mind and take it captive. Let my thoughts be yours. I stand facing Jesus and look at him. It is easier to focus on Jesus when I place him in my line of vision.
“Child, why is your mind so rushed?” I don’t know Lord, it seems I woke up this way. I suppose some days I think there is too much doing to do, to spend time being. We walk over to a large flat rock and sit down. Sitting with Jesus seems to quiet my mind for a bit. There is a powerful presence of peace when being with him.
My mind recalls the scripture from John chapter 15, “abide in me and I in you”. Abiding is hard this morning. Maybe, I have to desire abiding more than desiring everything else. Jesus and I continue to sit and look out over the still and quiet desert. As the distractions enter in, I offer them to Jesus. This act of surrendering my wandering thoughts reconnects me to him.
Surrender is the act of giving up oneself for another. The word selfish enters my mind. I will sit with this today…
Leslie,
Thank you for your honest confession! It’s one we all can relate too. Finding a quiet place to connect with God is a must, and yes, there is much peace in Jesus presence. I hope both you and I can find more meaningful time with him <3
I love your transparency. I don’t feel like you are being selfish. I pray that you will be able to feel His peace today sweet friend … ❤
I’m so glad I’m not the only one…and I’m so glad HE is so patient with me!
Mondays are bad for monkey brain…I do find he reaches me when I ask, though. It is still often so hard to maintain the focus.
Ah, I know exactly what you are talking about. I find it encouraging to know that I am not by myself in having days like this. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and experience!